"From promises to lies, to every tear drop that we cry,
the promises to care & understand each others lives.
From struggles at its worst, we said the love would never change.
Then why do I feel lied to every time its saying?
We said we had each other, unconditional love.
If this is what love is, then I think I’ve had enough.
The bullshit & the drama was nothing but wasted time.
This thing that we call love is just illusions of the mind .
All the smiles that we have is a story to be told,
but nothing in the world can make up for all this bull.
The problems that we faced there was something just reaching out;
we shoulda took the hint that this shit wont be working out
I mean, what have we been thinking, all those times we were together?
did u really think that we would be in love forever?
At this very age we shouldn’t be playing this game.
Now I understand that love is pain. "
stalker
Sunday, July 26, 2009
I have a friend who's a big time stalker and is currently reading all my blogs. He is the biggest dork in the world. :) ♥
wadaap
Monday, July 06, 2009
Summer is still continuing to do me good :D Last few days have been fun and like the last blogspot entry, I shall blog about these past few days hehe. On Friday I was suppose to go to that Hamilton jam with the big boiz but I didn't want to bus so I went to wonderland instead hehe. It was a killer to wait in line and walk around all day, ugh (N) On Saturday I went swimming with the family at Frank Mckechnie again and chilled with my cousins and the big boiz. Originally we were suppose to go to Woodbine but that plan was flop so we went to Bubble Republic instead. My cousins and I met up with everyone there and got the workers pissed off LOL :S I think it was 'cause there were too many people haha. Then we went to Famous Players and loafted there, trying to think of something else to do because they didn't have the movie we wanted to watch. Finally, we made a decision to go play pool. Oh emm gee - I suck at pool. LOL. Samantha lost so she's going to have to do the most funniest dare ever next time we reach down to hamilton LOL! After that some of my cousins and their friends went home but Sam and I stayed to chill with the big boiz a bit longer. We went to a bbq and picked up Steph and Baza. We had to chill outside on a corner of a intersection for literally an hour looking for baza LOL. IT WAS SO COLD TOO -.- Then when Ero finally found him we all walked to the bbq and chilled there for a while. Yummy food :)On Sunday I went paint balling with the uncles and a couple cousins. It was fucking bomb but it was waaay too hard to breathe in the mask after a while. My mask was fogging up LOL -.- I got hit several times but I didn't get it as mad as everyone else did 'cause I'm so small, hehe :D The funniest shit ever happened after that. While my cousin was paintballing, he had his phone on him and accidently dialed 911. All the cops heard was gun sounds and people screaming " I'M HIT, I GOT SHOT", "I GOT SHOT IN THE HEAD", "WHO SHOT ME?" etc and then it hung up. So they came to my uncle's house with back up and shit thinking there was a shooting going on LOL. Then my aunts took all my little cousins and I to Bulk and Barn to buy candy. We ended up spending eighty-fucking-five dollars on candy. W-T-F LOL. Now I'm at home bored as fuck. People have been calling me telling me to come out at night and shit but I don't wanna get booked again :( LOL. Arg, I really wanna go though (N)
Besides having so much fun lately, I realized I'm lacking sleep! Crap, I don't get enough sleep. I sleep late and wake up early (N) Not cool.
waddap summer ?!
Thursday, July 02, 2009
I figured out recently, I have unknown haters. Some flip gees are spreading shit about me and putting words into my mouth. I don't even associate with any sauga flip girls so I don't know why they're talkin' shit. This was more than two months ago though, so fuck the drama. I don't have time for bitches to ruin my summer.
Anyways, I haven't blogged in a while since I've been in Hamilton. I'm finally home though so I shall blog about these past few days :) I've been going swimming a lot lately with my little cousins at Frank McKechnie. I think there's a gay life guard there who took off his shorts in the pool.. LOL. I hate that community center, the swimming area smells like pee (N). On Sunday I went to go watch Transformers 2 with the family. We bought two tickets and brought in twenty kids and five adults. HOW ASIAN LOL. The movie was fucking awesome. On Monday I finally got my g1, loafted on that bitch for almost three months lol. I winged it and got one wrong, wooo :D It was a bitch waiting for it though - three and a half mother fucking hours! Ugh. I went there and waited in line only to realize I forgot my birth certificate so I had to go all the way home, come back and wait in line again -.- Luckily though, the lady recognized me and asked me to come to the front of the line hehe :D On Tuesday I went to Hamilton in the morning with my cousins; Samantha, Salina and Victoria. We went to Joanne's house and chilled for a bit then we went to D's Cafe and got bubble tea :D When we came back, we watched a scary movie with us cousins and Joanne's boyfriend and friend. It was the freakiest shit ever ! LOL. On Wednesday my cousins and I planned to wake up at nine o'clock, get ready and line up for Mandarin. FAIL. We ended up waking up at 11 30 and getting there at 12 something LOL. When we finally got there, the line up was fucking massive so we were about to turn around and go eat at pho but luckily we saw our family friend & Trinh's cousins and budded them hehe :D We only had to wait about 20-30 minutes :D Then Sam and I went down to Sauga to chill 'cause we were bored and had nothing to do. We went to Bubble Republic and met up with her friends. Then we all met up with Johnny at Famous Players's parking lot and walked to City Hall to watch the fire works at for Canada's day. I was so lazy to walk LOL -.- After that we met up with the big boiz and other people at Pho, waited for them to eat and loafted in the parking lot LOL. It was too jokes, I had a lot of fun with them minus the drama present. Sam dropped off Jedd, Arvin and Kathleen and then we got lost on the highway LOL -.- Stupid Gardinar Express -.- When we found out way, we met up with Kelvin and drove to meet up with Thomson, Tommy and Jack at Tommy's house. They were done-zoooo LOL. Then we dropped off Kelvin, picked up my cousin Jenn and ended up crashing at Sam's house at 5am -.- WHAT A DAY, LOL.
So I've been having a lot of fun lately :D Summer's doing me good so far. Let's just hope it continues to :)
This is the part (II)
Monday, June 29, 2009
I became someone I didn't want to become and I fucked myself up bad. This is the part where I leave everything behind. This is the part where I drop the negative characteristics I built throughout the years and become better. This is the part where I start fresh - no drama, no stress. It's time to
really enjoy my summer:)
Real eyes, Real lies, Realize .
Friday, June 26, 2009
You're funny, intelligent, and unique. You have a great sense of humor and a sense of style. You're always fun to hang out with and so energetic. Your thinking ability is different from others; you tend to look for a deeper meaning in simple things and have your own oppinion on typical things. When it came to the rough times, you always seem to find a way to cheer me up and make me smile. When it came to the dates, you were unselfish and generous; spending money on me was no problem to you. When it came to me, you loved me, cared about me; you were down for me, ride or die. This is YOU, the
real you. Unfortunately though, you are not the same person you once were. In fact, you've changed dramatically. A lot of people know the shit I went through for you. Those long ass nights where all I'd do is cry over something you did wrong. Those bitch movements and lies that I kept forgiving you for. Those two past years where I put you before everyone and everything only to get disappointed in the end. You dropped me; someone who was there for you no matter what. So after I've seen your
real eyes and real lies, I
realized I should be the one smiling and enjoying my summer, not you. Yeah, it hurt a lot, but going through all that trouble only made me a stronger person and you a lesser person. Therefore, at the end of the day, it's you who I feel sorry for.. 'cause baby, this was your loss.